I no longer believe in God.
I’ve concluded that the definitions are just too contradictory, that there are too many loopholes and too many reasons for me to not believe. No one can even agree on which version of God is the right one, or whether there are many gods in existence.
Moreover, science is more reliable to me anyway. It clearly is more logical, given that it’s supported by the evidence required to prove something as fact.
So, as of this moment, I no longer believe in the idea of some deity looming over us. What I do believe in now is personal responsibility – the idea that our choices and our actions determine our lives.
I will no longer think I am saved, just because I believe in a particular doctrine. Rather, I’ll do my best to save myself, to act honorably and kindly towards my fellow men and women. After all, I don’t need to believe in any god before I decide to help others, the same way I don’t need the idea of heaven to motivate me to live the best life that I can.
In my eyes, all I need to understand is that I’m personally responsible for what I say, think and do. I only need to remember that my actions can impact myself and others, so I had better act as kindly and as helpfully as I can.
Exactly the same way, don’t need a god to motivate me to be grateful, only my personal desire to thank those who’ve been with me in my journey.
That’s all I can say. As of this moment, I’m saying goodbye to the idea of religion, along with any deity or deities that may be up there. Perhaps I’ll be wrong at death, but I trust in the justice of whoever may judge me.
Let me be judged by the number of lives that I helped, the number of faces to which I added a smile, and the number of thank-yous that I said to those who deserved it.
I’m saying goodbye to the need for a doctrine to dictate how I live. I’m taking it from the Dalai Lama here.
There is no need for temples, no need for complicated philosophies. My mind and my heart are my temples, my philosophy is kindness.
So, goodbye God, and hello to personal responsibility!
PS. I do not begrudge anyone who still believes. There are many teachings in different religions that can help humanity, so please feel free to believe as you like. I wish you well in your journey, it’s just that we’ve taken different paths.